...Rich and I have pulled through and we're better than ever.

Working and having fun in between... Lots of clubbing in Philly lately... and yes, I'm still a jersey girl.. <3

I don't really have much to say, just stopped by.... Rich and I are about to get lunch... i'm starvin!!!! hahah

Needless to say it has been forever, like usual. I tend to forget about lj since myspace has totally consumed me... hahah. But I like to stop back and check in on people. So how's everyone been?

My life has just been totally crazy lately. I mean I'm a completely different person that I was at this time last year. I've grown a lot... mentally. Been through a lot. Became a little bit more of a bitter person... I'm gonna work on that though... hahah.


Still with Rich... we've been kinda rocky lately, but I'm hoping we'll pull through it.

I'll be back to DJing real soon... I'll be doing a couple neat photoshoots soon. I'll be sure to stop back and post some pics for everyone to check out and comment on.

Maybe I won't abandon my livejournal as much... a friend of mine lost hers for not logging in, in a while... i don't want that to happen. =/

... a friend reminded me of Livejournal. I had completely abandoned and forgotten all bout my poor little LJ. AYE! Well 2008 has been a roller coaster ride of emotions. Its no wonder I haven't really updated. Figured I'd pop in and just say hey... i'm alive. I'm on my way to work so perhaps a bigger update later. :)

In the same place............ just missing him, wanting him.

Since I was a little girl, I've been intrigued by this factory.  We used to pass by it every Sunday on the way to church or my grandfathers house.  I don't know much about the history of the place but my dad once told me it was a dog food factory, and there's a little store out front that used to sell the dog food.  Its all run down and abandoned now, and has been for years.  I've gone back there several times, going back a few years, with some friends to smoke pot, hahah.  Walking far back behind the factory so we wouldn't get caught... and was intrigued by the place then as well.  Bella Blue and I walked the tracks and took a few photos so I thought I would share them... they are also posted in my pics in the Deadstars Photography album... so check them out and leave them some comments.

 

 

 

 

 

 

I'm sicky... send me love and get well wishes. hehe =./

DJ VoRteX // SPINDIZZY // GLOBAL X RADIO
7-10PM [EST]

VNV NATION - LEGION
THE RETROSIC - THE STORM
ASSEMBLAGE 23 - LET THE WINDS ERASE ME
SUICIDE COMMANDO - FACE OF DEATH [R]
WUMPSCUT - YOUR LAST SALUTE
EISBRECHER - FANATICA
PROJECT PITCHFORK - STEELROSE
DISMANTLED - BREED TO DEATH
BELLA MORTE - FALL NO MORE
CRUXSHADOWS - HEART ON MY SLEEVE
BEBORN BETON - ANOTHER WORLD
AMDUSCIA - SAD WARRIOR SOUL [R]
FLESH FIELD - THE EUCHARIST
GARY NUMAN - DEAD HEAVEN
PETER MURPHY - CUTS YOU UP
NECROMANTIK SUNSHINE - LONELY
SISTERS OF MERCY - THIS CORROSION
MDFMK - TORPEDOS [R]
SKINNY PUPPY - DOWNSIZER
LEAETHERSTRIP - COME OUT TONIGHT
SWITCHBLADE SYMPHONY - GUTTER GLITTER
KILLING JOKE - LOVE LIKE BLOOD
CHRISTIAN DEATH - LUXURY OF TEARS
SIOUXSIE AND THE BANSHEES - CITIES IN DUST
MORTIIS - MENTAL MAELSTROM
PANZER DIVISION - IMPOSSIBLE MISSION
BELLA MORTE - RELICS [R]
ROTERSAND - EXTERMINATE ANNIHILATE DESTROY
AND ONE - LOVE AND FINGERS
CRUXSHADOWS - BIRTHDAY
RAZED IN BLACK - COME BACK TO ME
DEVISION - DRIFTING SIDEWAYS
COVENANT - CALL THE SHIPS TO PORT
WOLFSHEIM - ITS HURTING FOR THE FIRST TIME
SCANDY - CRUSH ON A ROBOT
ZOMBIE GIRL - BLEEDER

Things really are amazing when he and I are together.


I feel like I opened up on a whole new level. I SANG LAST NIGHT!!! Anyone who knows me knows that my voice is my truest passion and that I also let go of it a few years back. WHY IS HE SO AMAZING?!?!? He's so persistent that I stay true to my passions and persue them. He said I have a pretty voice and that I should work on it so I can perform again. I truly do miss performing. I could cry just thinking about it. It was a high unlike any other, to get up in front of a crowd and pour my heart and soul into song lyrics. I really miss it! So last night, I belted out some lyrics, and he seemed a little impressed, which just kind of comforted me in itself... i was nervous, but at the same time i thought... I want to marry this man, why would i hide myself from him... any part of me... i want to give myself to him, fully, wholey, COMPLETELY!!! I want him to know EVERYTHING about me... so why be afraid of anything... So I let go; I let loose... and it really made me feel good!!!

Aside from that, we just had such a nice day together. We drove into Millville, stopped at the bank first, brought what I call my "fuck it bucket" which is what I throw all my loose change in... got some cash, more than I thought I had [since i'm broke until tomorrow], then we went to Jim's Lunch for some cheeseburgers [with everything yummm], walked up and down high st a little arms linked of course heheh, stopped at Starbucks on the way back, well I HAD to have my peppermint white chocolate mocha, duh!!! lol. He finally got to look at the scrapbook I made for him and read my deepest, truest feelings. Then we came back, cuddled a little, but not nearly enough. And all in all just had a very nice day together. It all went by too fast, but I smile at the thought that someday, I'm going to marry my best friend.

GLOBAL X RADIO
SPINDIZZY WITH DJ VORTEX

First Hour:
Front Line Assembly - Provision[Aphex Twin Mix]
Skinny Puppy - Tin Omen
Pig - Serial Killer Thriller
Genitorturers - Sin City
Sister Machine Gun - Temptation
KMFDM - Juke Joint Jezebel
Skold - Neverland
Necromatik Sunshine - Lonely
Speciman - Kiss Kiss Bang Bang
45 Grave - Partytime [zombie version]
Siousxie and the Banshees - Cities In Dust
Rosetta Stone - Nothing
Sisters of Mercy - Lucretia My Reflection
She Wants Revenge - Tear You Apart
Second Hour:
And One - Body Nerv
DeVision - Drifting Sideways
Apoptygma Berzerk - Spindizzy [how ironic is that?]
Blaqk Audio - Stiff Kittens
Suicide Commando - Face of Death
Informatik - A Matter of Time
Laibach - Tanz Mit Mir
Amduscia - Sad Warrior Soul
Eisbrecher - Zeichen Der Venus
Deadstar Assembly - Send Me an Angel
Dismantled - Breed To Death
Unto Ashes - This Sickness

I'M GOING BACK ON THE AIR STARTING TOMORROW!!!


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